A work in progress

Not much to post about at this point. It seems like lately, I am full of deeper, reflective thoughts.

I'm in the process of evaluating alot of things in my life. Alot of this has come out of our home groups' study of the Purpose Driven Life. I've had that book for about 3 or 4 years, and never finished it until now- I think I wasn't ready to commit. I didn't really WANT to know what I needed to do, or change, or focus on. You know- the whole "mylifeisfinethewayitis" mentality. Well, I did miss SOME of the reading, but at least between my reading, the sermon series, and home group- I'm getting a good bit of the jist- I will need to re-read, and review. The truth is, if I want that deeper Relationship... I have to change some things. And the way I think. I've been working on that. I'm a work in progress, you know... so everyone cut me a little slack, and I'll try to do the same for you.

I've come to realize, I'm probably one of the "EGR's" of the world- "Extra Grace Required" (for people to tolerate me). I'm an extremely vocal person and a proliferate writer of words (obviously), and that probably gets me in trouble more often than not.

I'm the first one to fire off an email, or letter to a company's headquarters, all in an effort to fight for 'consumer's rights'. I've convinced myself that it's for a good cause. I put alot of energy and passion into my words- whether it's a customer service complaint or compliment, an email, a blog, or even a conversation. This can be good, and it can be bad. It's probably better when I write things down first because when words fly off the tip of my tongue, they're usually the wrong ones, at the wrong time. Too bad I don't have to write them all down first, so I'd have to re-read them 5 times before "posting".

Although, I will say that there have been times when my words have maybe made sense to SOMEONE, and maybe made a difference. At least I hope so. That's something I need to pattern more of my life after Jesus. When He spoke, it was worth saying, important, and timed perfectly. My speech is usually useless, hot-air, ill-timed, and sometimes even inappropriate. I'll admit it. So for those of you in my who've been victims of this, I apologize. Again, I'm a work in progress. Forgive me.