Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Going Dark

I'm about 36 hours into my media fast- which will consist of no facebook and no pinterest for 7 days. For some people that's no big deal. For me, I'm realizing it is.

I didn't have a lot of problems deleting the Facebook app from my ipad (this was the last thing I took off my phone at the last second) but I DID have some issues with Pinterest. I texted my friend, Ann, who's already done this fast- to make sure that it wouldn't delete all my pins for all eternity by removing the app temporarily from phone and ipad. Because there's some important stuff on there. On my pinterest boards. Like, how to grow sweet potatoes from an organic one. And what plants can surround my patio to keep mosquitoes away. And my recipes (very few have failed me yet). Plus, my best friend's getting married, and we all know that my pins for her wedding will make it or break it. How in the world will my garden survive without Pinterest? (So far, so good).

I did not let my cell phone ride on my dash board yesterday like it was my best friend. It stayed in my purse and I felt very naked. Also, in the last 36 hours, my husband has been stuck in Chicago (thanks American Airlines computer gliche) for a full 24+ hrs more than he'd planned. I specifically planned this fast so he'd be here, so I'd have some adult conversation and companionship. So it's been a long 24 hours. With no one to "talk" too, or banter with. Oh my Lord what a sad little person I've become when Facebook is my best friend when Martin's out of town. I have been having a full-on pity party for 24 hours or more. There's nothing spiritual going on here except me realizing I count on people and "Noise" too much. (This probably stems from my childhood years of 4 siblings plus 2 parents, a couple of dogs, a couple of birds, Lord knows how many cats and even a couple bunnies, and maybe even a few extra relatives living in the same house as me. It was never quiet. I can't do quiet).



A few tidbits my Facebook world has missed:

My need for parenting advice when one of my kids lied PLUS disobeyed me directly, and the other was an accomplice.
Me slamming my finger in the bathroom door and not being able to whine about it. (It still hurts ya'll).
Husband sitting in an airport for at least 5+ hours before American finally cancelled his flight and he gave up and got a hotel.
American Airlines calling me at 4:45am to let me know hubby's NEW flight was cancelled too. Yes, thank you. I needed to know that. (No I couldn't go back to sleep).
And the fact that I've consumed at least 6 chocolate chip cookies in the past 24 hours (2 at breakfast) to replace the vice.

Good Lord. Ya'll need to KNOW this stuff!!!! I just realized everyone of those was negative. But hey, it wasn't a great day.

Good things about it so far:

NONE.

Just kidding.

I haven't had to read a lot of stuff about Boston (which makes me sad, depressed and angry) unless I choose too.
I haven't gotten down nearly as many rabbit holes- ie: check Facebook news feeds, which leads me to read friends blog- which leads to an article about ____ in our foods,(OMG I ALMOST JUST PULLED UP FB TO SEE WHAT THAT WORD WAS ON HER BLOG!), which leads to the article on which food products contain _____ and which brands to buy/avoid, back to facebook updates- repeat process.
I read books with the boys last night.
I watched Mason play basketball.
I folded 5 loads of laundry (too many).
I did my Bible study.
I'm sending cards to 3 friends.
I've got a niggling suspicion I'm supposed to be letting God and my family fill up my silence instead of white noise.

Hopefully, I'll get off my hiney and take a walk later. Instead of scrolling around. Even now, I can't post this blog to Facebook. Gah.





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