Just Click Refresh....

Being a Stay-At-Home-Mom has its particular challenges when the time comes to round out one year, and begin another. In the midst of all the holiday chaos, someone had the bright idea to let the kiddos be out of school, so that you have one more (or two, or three, or even four) thing(s) to deal with. Don't get me wrong, my kids and I made some wonderful memories over the holidays. We went to see Santa, we walked up and down the street after dark- looking at the "ho-ho's" (Coen's term for Christmas lights), we decorated cookies, made a Star Wars wreath, worked on a paper Christmas chain garland, and watched oh-so-many holiday videos on TV. (All of this should point out the lengths to which I went to fill the time)....

Anyway, along with the kids being out for school, most of my social circles, Bible studies, etc. were also put on hold during the Holidays, so that we WOULDN'T have that one extra thing to deal with. That worked out great, up until about 2 weeks ago. And then, I realized, I had experienced exactly TWO instances of adult-only time over the course of 3-4 weeks. This led me to some sort of slow and gradual melt-down over the last week, which ended with me sobbing hysterically to Martin, that "I NEED SOME GROWNUP TIME!!!!!!" I proceeded to tell him that I had been sitting at home, clicking "refresh" on my email or facebook profile, in the hopes that Someone, Somewhere would be available to chat. I call people, but they're all busy, and while many of my friends are now SAHM's also, our schedules seldom line up to be able to chat. I was feeling pretty low.

Needless to say, got a phone call from Martin from work today... just checking up on me. Made me happy, I must say. Tomorrow my Bible study starts up again, and things will swing back into normal- at least, until Friday and Monday, when my kids are ONCE AGAIN out of school for a Holiday. Sigh.

I don't write this to make you feel sorry for me, or to get someone to pick up the phone and call me. I write this, because somewhere out there, there's someone else clicking refresh, and waiting.... never fear, my dear, you're not alone.